Sunday, June 18, 2006

So Sick

ALMOST everyone around me is sick! boo-hoo!!!

and i don't know why i feel so guilty...

I hope .. i hope the germs don't come from me.. I mean, the probability of them getting the germs from me is 70%?? Cos im in constant contact with them..

Had the dreadful menses today at work. im so fuckin lucky that im wearing a denim skirt. but im sooo bloody pissed off that of all the days in this week, i chose to wear my not-so-trusty gstring (i know u don't really wanna know what underwear i'm wearing.) Ok. don't even bother to think how i survived the day. I don't even wanna think about it... But no, no mishaps today.. No kotex falling out/apart for all it matters... Just pure uncomfortableness (IF there is such a word.)

I'm bingeing on Apollo wafer biscuit now and i know i shouldn't be doing that cos it's like 10.42pm here.. and snacks are never good. But i can't help it .. Blame it on PMS.. Hee Hee... So much for controlling my diet. pfft.

I don't know how some people can gorge themselves with food and not have a pinch of fats on their tummy. Fucking amazing. Like BOTH my sister. Makan mcm monster, badan mcm semut. Tak paham aku! And to stay in one house, with girls like that are a bit de-moralizing ain't it? haha.. I know people has been campaigning "Love ya body, Love thyself" that kind of things.. As much as i wanna LISTEN and get it in my brain, get it in my system that BIG IS BEAUTIFUL, i just can't. Either my ears are not big enough.. or the brain is not big enough. I don't know.

And i don't mean to say i wanna be stick thin like my choco wafers.. I don't wanna be that. I just wanna be average. (Ok, i don't want to be average. Average is not good enough. haha.. ok. above average. Ego-At-Work)

Maybe i should just stop fretting over it..maybe i shouldn't . My diet hasn't been a healthy one. I eat fruits in like, once, in... err.. two weeks? If i'm lucky. and even when i do, it will be sinful fruits like Mangoes.. durians.. haha.. cos I don't fancy apple... They are a bit too hard too chew.

Slimming pills are out. nOt good for the system.. last option.. exercise.
No time.
No sport shoe.
No nice shorts.
No sports Bra.
No one to go with.
and the list go on...
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I'm just plain lazy. enuff said.
(My BF gonna widen his eyes at this. cos he's a gym freak.and im a couch potato. Match made in heaven. hah!)

I don't mind going for dance classes though. Or aerobics. Or kick-boxing.
But i don't know where is the most convenient place to go to from Bt Timah???
Transport is a problem. I don't wanna take the train back home in my sweaty shirts. Very the bachin.
Forget abt asking the BF to whiz me to and fro. He don't even have time to shit properly.

Should i ask my dad to convert the storeroom to a exercise room??? haha.. Only that it's bloody small.. and it can barely fit a bench, let alone a treadmill. haha. I will just die from suffocation. and where the hell are we gonna put the junks in the storeroom?? in my room?? haha. Like it's not messy enough...

Oh.. talking abt my room, it seriously need a major spring cleaning. and i plan to do it on wednesday. if im not lazy. Current state of the room is disastrous. I have like 8 library books piled on each other..makeups strewn all over the table.. my leftover medicine.. my neverending accessories all over the place. newspaper dated back to april on the table. tak paham aku. and my luggages.. there are still some clean clothes in there which i have not unpack. from the philippines n KL trip. See how lazy i can be?? How do i expect to lose weight, you tell me???

oh..and i don't know how one story gets to another. So typical of me.
Dyan Razali stayed home at 10:37 PM